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Friday, March 11th, 2005
6:28 pm	the song she will not go away Dance the night away by karchan85 Name What you Look like The Music Jazz Quiz created with MemeGen! (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
8:11 pm	DIE! Take the quiz at dicepool.com (Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
4:31 pm	A face you can trust! my friend melanie sent me this the other day. it's of the two of us, presumably at a show, presumably in aught aught. in case you thought i never left the house. these last few days i've been having a lot of ideas about a story i've been writing in my head for half a year now. i blame forest for this i dunno, call it creativity. see, this is why i had to move out here, people have the time, energy and wherewithall to urge me to do things, as well as doing amzing things themselves. actually this is all connected, since i'm basically strip mining my year in new york for pieces to go into this story. for this i blame ashli. she really got me thinking about this whole shadow self mode of writing, and so far it seems to be a good source of material. anyway, i've also been working out some arrangements for some of those old tunes we recovered from my busted hard drive. many of the more recent pieces only need minor alterations (in addition to massive arrangeing issues) to make them, in my mind, really good and complete. who knows, maybe someday i might actually get to hear some of that music played by real instruments. anyway, if you've been thinking about calling me and saying, "hey let's do X", then do so. cause i'm totally in the mood for doing X. er, wait a minute . . . Current Mood: pretty pretty good Current Music: plaid - double figure (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
2:01 pm	In days of ribaldry and wine At last! Many's the time I've been made to surrender my billfold or pocketwatch perforce to some ruffian for want of the skill and daring to best him with only my cane or umbrella. No more! http://ejmas.com/jnc/jncart_barton-wright_0400.htm Current Mood: smashing Current Music: The Tiger Lilies (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 10th, 2005
1:58 pm	the problem solvers driving home from getting sandwiches at the cheese house my brother turns to me and says "i've figured out what to do about all the sullen teenagers. we just have to install robotic vanilla ice in every high school." he then descended into a fit of laughter making the rest of the explaination to garbled for me to reiterate here. apparently there would also be a plan in place allowing certain schools to upgrade to "robotic mc hammer robots". so yeah, we've got it covered. Current Mood: robotic vanilla ice Current Music: wasted - camper van beethoven (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 8th, 2005
2:23 am	happiness the plan for tonight was to take our World of Warcraft characters into the Wailing Caverns, an elite dungeon wherein we excpected to nab some choice loot. we had the team together and were in the process of drinking the requisite potions and sharing the requisite quests when the entire world crashed. so that plan was off. so instead forest came over and hooked up my old hard drive as a slave to my current hard drive, so as to extract the previously unobtainable data from within. while he did this i spoke at length with jon on the phone, which was nice. i definitely look forward to seeing him in the near future. hooray for feeling better. at any rate the long and the short of it is, forest's labors bore fruit, and we copied my "songs" folder from the old hard drive to the new. he then left to do his own, as they say, thang. a little background. over two years ago i literally fled california. feeling friendless and betrayed (i was neither) i packed half my stuff into my car and left the rest in the lobby of Bekins dormitory and drove four days to my mother's house north of Atlanta where i stayed for over a year. shortly after having arrived i composed a song on my computer which i entitled "happiness". after listening to the finished piece exactly once, my hard drive crashed and could not be repaired by anyone available to me at the time. now i had started writing music on the computer approximately one year prior when i was alone in redlands for a summer with very little to do. i had continued, though not quite on the same rigorous schedule, throughout the ensuing school year. it was something that had become important to me, and i very much enjoyed listening to the songs i created. i had never backed up any of my pieces anywhere, ever. oh a few friends had copies that weren't true to the current edits, and i had a cd of some of the songs done in midi, but no true backup existed. i didn't really write much after that. i just finished listening to the finished version of "happiness", which to my ear still needs tweaking, for the first time in well over two years, and for the second time ever. thank you forest. Current Mood: no fucking idea Current Music: happiness - rob chaitin (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
10:15 am	there are very few things, it seems, that i have control of. but by god the cleanliness of my kitchen is one of them. also, mysterious stranger, you left your glasses case at my apartment, so come and get it. Current Mood: huh? Current Music: superchunk - on the mouth (4 Comments |Comment on this)
5:08 am	stolen from dafstar <td>You are a Fork. You are special, unique... and shiny.... but you just don't know it. Many admire you for your outward appearance, but you haven't truly expressed all of the great stuff inside of you. You have the potential to do great things and help others, and this will help you in the future. When you hold a grudge at someone, however, this can be dangerous. Despite your calmness that most people perceive about you, you keep a lot of feelings bottled up inside that one day can make you explode and stab something. Instead of resorting to that, you can say, "Go Fork Yourself!" Most compatible with: Knife, and Sock. Click here -- What Random Object Represents Your Inner Self? </td> (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
5:05 am	i went to the doc yesterday. he thinks my coughing is simply post viral irritation. this is not serious and should go away on its own after a time. that said he understood how troubled i was not being able to sleep and proscribed me robitussin with codeine. i am pleased to announced i hve just slept for four hours ininterrupted by coughing of any kind. so hopefully if i just keep on the syrup and actually get some rest now, i will be feeling better in a little while. thanks so much to everyone who has offered me advice this past week. be well. Current Mood: relieved Current Music: i'm just a love machine - the miracles (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
2:12 am	to my CoH friends well i wanted to talk to y'all on teamspeak about this, but i've stopped talking mostly in pursuit of coughing less, and if this is something like whooping cough it could go on for a month. i don't want to put it off any longer. i'm switching games. going over to WoW. this is for a few reasons. first of all, josh gave my brother and i a trial pass to the game, and after trying it out i really enjoyed it. it has, so far, been extremely fun to play. second, i have a large and still growing number of friends who are playing WoW or who intend to start soon. i'm excited about the opportunity to play with these people. third, i have the opportunity to game with my brother. we have two characters who we have been levelling together, and the experience has been fun, which i excpected, but also really intimate in a way, which was surprising. unfortunately, while CoH has rich stories and art just like WoW, i've already seen all of it. it's just not as easy to share the excitement of discovery. Finally, i've grown a little bored with CoH. This does not surprise me, nor does it, i feel, reflect poorly on the game. i knew i would not be the type who stuck with one game for years on end. for me once the newness rubs off and the fun dims even a little, it's time to put the game to bed. i would not regret this at all, except that i have met some pretty amazing people through CoH and teamspeak, and i shudder at the prospect of dropping them like used toys. at any rate, i WILL be back on teamspeak when i am able to speak with coughing and i'll look forward to talking to y'all when that time comes. until then, have fun playing and give my best to the nightwatchers who aren't on lj. thanks. Current Mood: purposeful (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 1st, 2005
5:33 pm	in summary woke up. coughing. very little sleep. drank a lot of water. surfed the net while coughing subsided. went back to bed. lying down got me coughing again. james is right. i need to see a doctor. oh fuck it's new years day and saturday. no one except the emergency room open. phoned my dad. he doesn't have a family physician. but he did have some good advice for things i can do to allieviate the coughing until monday. and also offered to help me with the cost of the appointment since i have no insurance. this is why, despite his frequent fucktardedness, i love my dad. not the money, the fact that deep down he sincerely gives a shit. went to walmart. at the last minute said fuck that and went to target instead. what has walmart ever done for me? got some cough shit from the target pharmacy. the check out lady kind of chuckled when i slapped down my menagerie of medication for purchase. i was not amused. on the way out i walked past a middle aged man and a girl in her early to mid teens. my assumption was that this pair was father daughter, but they might have been uncle niece, stepf stepd or humbert lolita for all i know. the wierd thing was that from their body language and their tone of voice, if there hadn't been the age disparity between them i would have assumed they were flirting or engaged in verbal foreplay. sort of teasing each other in what i took to be a very sexualized manner. now thinking they were father daughter at first this got me to thinking about the dynamics of that relationship, one which for obvious reasons i know nothing about. i wondered is there an intensely sexual dynamic there inherently or as a part of our acculturation that i simply hadn't seen before? of course a lot of fathers fuck with their daughters because we are a society afflicted with a sickness of abuse and objectification. but that's not what i mean. what i was wondering was whether there's a pseudo sexual relationship between a lot of american fathers and daughters who's interactions are, explicitly, non sexual and who would be thought of as "healthy"? are father's super protective of their dating age girls because, essentially, they see teenage boys as trying to steal their sexual partner? there seems to be a lot in the lexicon to suggest this (the phrase "daddy's little girl" comes to mind). then i started wondering whether it's the other way round, that our youth and beauty obsessed culture has pulled the wool over my eyes causing me to see the potential for a sexualized relationship where it doesn't really exist. there's certainly an avalanche of images and words to this effect. who's your daddy? so i dunno. at any rate i got some food for ivan brosky and now im gonna have some cough drops and try to feel better. happy new year everybody. Current Mood: befuddled (Comment on this)
Friday, December 31st, 2004
1:19 pm	is this the future? http://www.penny-arcade.com/view.php3?date=2004-12-31 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:08 pm	only slept for three hours before my coughing woke me up. don't feel like sleeping, don't feel like eating. then just now i felt like i was burning up with fever and had to throw up a little. this cold is not getting better. i hope i don't have anything serious like pneumonia or some other infection. i guess i should bombard myself with curatives; vitamin c, echinachea and zinc whenever i eat. i'm open to suggestions people. Current Mood: worried (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
8:44 am	help me obi-cough-kenobi, you're my only cough i have been coughing all night. my throat and neck are sore from abrasion and strain. it seems like colds for me always come in stages. first my throat will be extremely sore. then i'll get a lot of aches and pains and my skin will get really sensitive. then i get really sniffly with a sinus headache. then there's usually a little bit where i feel pretty ok and i think i am on the mend. and then the coughing sets in. the coughing always seems like the worste part. like i'm going to do serious damage to my throat. and it's made to seem worse by the fact that i feel almost fine otherwise. very little congestion, few aches or pains, breathing easily, energy and appetite returning. just constant unrelenting coughing. hopefully i will eventually sleep and when i wake the coughing will be over. apologies to those who didn't want to read about my cold. Current Mood: coughing Current Music: fcs north - fcs north (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 27th, 2004
1:21 am	i have what we in the trades refer to as a big time cold. i'm hoping it's stage manager flu and it goes away after a couple of days, but i'm no longer working as a stage manager, so all bets are off. this week has been crazy. i've seen, like, everyone. a whole lot of people from out of town. so i'm in a good mood except that i just have that feel like utter ass thing going that happens with a cold. hope everyone else's holidays have been as nice as mine, but without the nasty viral action. Current Mood: sicktacular Current Music: the doves - lost souls (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
12:35 pm	so [info]dafstar and [info]angry_american hosted my drunken twenty eight year old ass last night and for that i am thankful. also [info]mmvashnik and [info]sheepwhatsleeps showed up and they're asleep on our couches right now. thank you everyone for the support during my time of foul temper, blah, blah, blah. for christmas i want to see [info]maybe_octagons and [info]hvyhvymonster and do dorky stuff with them. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
3:05 pm	i am twenty eight years old. i am also down in the dumps. i really hope these two things aren't connected because i don't like people who bitch about getting older on their birthday. i feel like i am not very good at being alive. that notwithstanding, i have still managed to do it for longer than i thought i would when i was an ignorant teenager. now as an ignorant adult i'm not getting excited about it, and i wish i was. i was going to post something about how now a bunch of naysayers had to pay up, but i'm not feeling pithy, i'm not feeling funny, i'm just feeling pissed and scared and stupid and lazy. and fuck it, i'm going to wallow in that. here's to all my friends though. thank you for the unwavering support and fellowship over all these years. Current Mood: blech Current Music: plug - drum and bass for papa (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 18th, 2004
6:53 pm	dinner last night went, in my opinion, better than expected. it's always a treat for me when other people have to interact with my dad. takes the edge off him a lot and makes me much more comfortable. unfortunately for my friends he was on his best behavior so they didn't get to hear him say any of his bizarre phrases (can i get a gloing?!) but overall it was an evening with good food, good conversation, a lot of laughter and no small amount of alcohol. i am currently typing this in a chair that is far too low for my desk. to my left, xneurosisx is typing in a stool that is far too high for his desk. this can only mean one of two things. either we have an additional roommate we don't know about who's chair is just right, or dafstar and angry_american have unborrowed their furniture in a desperate attempt to stem the parental tide. good luck to them and may fate favor the bold. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
3:10 pm	last night i baked brownies at four in the morning. today, directly after waking up i read two arab fairy tales. tomorrow i will be going to tapas with my brother who is my roommate, my two close friends who are my neighbors, and my father. (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 11th, 2004
3:19 am	i am actually feeling pretty good right now, which is a welcome change of pace. i have been miserable and grouchy for the last few days, no doubt in large part to a stubborn cold sore underneath my tongue. and i've just been feeling like everything's been fucking with me. but today after cereal and shower i hopped on CoH and spent over eight hours doing a fucking kick ass task force with my nightwatche cronies. now i can feel myself grinning for the first time in a while and just feeling generally very good. so if ever anyone alledges that gaming is a waste of time or has a negative effect on people kindly tell them to go fuck themselves. with like a rusty lawnmower blade. Current Mood: pleased Current Music: they might be giants - then: the early years (Comment on this)